There’s Something Happening Here...
What It Is Ain’t Exactly Clear
“Stop, hold your fire, put down your weapons, you’ll never get to heaven with an AK47.”
What a great song that was. It took me years to find it again when the whole streaming thing became… well, a thing. I obviously knew the original was by Buffalo Springfield (not the AK47 bit), but for the life of me, I couldn’t remember the band that sampled it. I’m not awfully keen on sampling, but this, I felt, honoured the original. It’s by Oui 3, for those of you racking your brains out there.
That’s beside the point, though, because there is something happening here, and what it is ain’t exactly clear. My head is all over the place - mostly in a good way, I think. I was executing the Hydro Continuum Protocol earlier (or as everyone else calls it, “having a shower”) and my head started wandering into stand-up comedy terrain.
Now, that’s been out of my head since the project started, really. I was intending to do an open mic at the beginning of February, but at that point, I clearly wasn’t ready so mission abandoned. But now? I’m beginning to feel like I might just be in a place to go and stress-test the new Filing System. I don’t even care if I fail; I just want to know where I stand neurocognitively (in front of the mic, presumably).
Enter: Morgen Muffel
I have a routine about the AI Scaffold which was drafted as I came back online briefly towards the end of December, so I wouldn’t be going in cold. I also have the Prophylactic Sonic Buffer Protocol - Guitar as a continuous auditory stream, with texture-focused settings, running through the set to prevent PFC (Prefrontal Cortex) overload before it starts.
Not forgetting my newly adopted stage name: Morgen Muffel. It’s German for “grumpy in the morning.” It couldn’t be more perfect, as that’s a trait that dates back way before the chemical modulation. I shall ponder some more, but maybe this is it; me with my feet firmly planted on Terra Nova, guitar in hand, with nothing but a plectrum and a dream.
The Bad-Ass Phase
On another note, I am functioning like a bad-ass just now. Somatic symptoms persist, but they aren’t holding me back. I now have all the Daily Dispatches as podcasts on YouTube as well as the previous channels on Apple, etc. I’ve been re-recording all the articles because I treated myself to a new condenser mic and - look at me - I’m even sitting down early to batter out tomorrow’s Dispatch before today is even finished.
What can I say? I’m functioning while I still can. It won’t be long before I’ll be paying a three-week visit to Anhedonia.
But if I should become a stranger, you know that it would make me more than sad... Anhedonia’s been everything I’ve ever had.
The march to the wall continues unabated; and at high speed.
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