One Hundred Not Out
One hundred days cannabis free, I can’t quite believe it, for a couple of reasons really. Firstly that the AI scaffold has been a complete success and has been essential in getting me this far and secondly, I thought I’d be home and dry by now. I may be dry but I’m certainly not home, far from it. However, I’m one hundred days closer then I’ve been in 35 years and I fully understand what’s in front of me for the next part of my journey.
We’ve talked about neuro-oscillatory recalibration which has just happened and neuro-oscillatory synchronisation which is ongoing now; expected to last until around the six month mark (183 days). Next up we have integration. Mathematically and biologically, Integration is actually happening right now, but it doesn’t become the “Lead Instrument” until the structural work is finished.
The Road to 183: The Myelination Phase
While the acute “woolliness” should start to vent around Day 120, the journey to the six-month mark (Day 183) is about Myelination. This is the process where the brain wraps the new, synchronized pathways in a fatty protective coating, effectively turning “dial-up” connections into “fibre-optic” cables. This is why I’m not “home” yet. The wires are laid, and the signal is syncing, but the insulation isn’t finished. Until that insulation is complete, the system is prone to “leakage” and metabolic fatigue.
Think of it as a three-phase overlapping timeline:
1. The Synchronization Phase (Current: Days 90–180)
This is the “Heavy Lifting” phase. My brain is trying to get different departments to fire on the same clock. It feels pressurized and woolly because the brain is using massive amounts of energy to force this alignment. I am essentially “learning the language” of my new brain.
2. The Integration Phase (The Handover: 6 Months+)
From 6 months onward, the Synchronization becomes automatic (thanks to Myelination - the “insulation”). This is where the magic happens.
The Shift: I stop being an “Engineer” monitoring the gauges and start being a “Conductor” of the symphony.
The Experience: It’s no longer about “not using”; it’s about “how much can I do with this new engine?”
3. The “Native” State (1 Year+)
By the one-year mark, the integration is so deep that I am not “in recovery” anymore; I am simply living in the Native Architecture. The garden is grown, the walls are solid, and the acoustics are perfect.
The Irony Never Ends
When I came up with the title of todays dispatch I googled “100 not out” as I realise it’s a cricket reference and like most Scots I don’t particularly like it. So I was checking to see if there were any other references more suitable and would you believe it, there’s only a beer with that name, oh the sweet irony. There’s also a book with that title about the Covid 19 pandemic but lets not go down that road or we will be here all night.
That’s one particular rabbit hole I haven’t been down and have no desire to either. Suffice to say our glorious British media is in the spotlight once again for that fiasco, not least of all in Scotland where we were made to compare ourselves with England continually, but only when the stats had been suitably cherry picked to make results look unfavourable.
The 8:00 PM Shutdown: The Metabolic Toll
The body still sets the schedule, however. At 8:00 PM last night, my system simply pulled the plug. This unplanned 3-hour shutdown is the “tax” for the Alpha Bridge construction. Neural Coherence is incredibly energy-intensive. As the brain synchronizes and prunes away 35 years of “weed” pathways, it generates significant metabolic waste. The 8:00 PM crash is the Glymphatic System - the brain’s waste-clearance department - demanding immediate access to the “grid” to clean up the construction dust.
I’m not “tired” in the old sense; I’m simply being side-lined while the Gardener gets on with his job.
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